Well, my new best friend has taken off for L.A. in search of answers.  Questions that hit you pretty hard, like what else to do with your life, what you want to be when you grow up, etc.  I find myself in the same position, and I’m slowly finding some of those answers.  Only I can’t escape to L.A. to try to find those answers.

I miss him terribly.  We’ve gotten so close over the past few months, and he’s such a part of my life now.  Do I wish something would happen between us?  You bet.  I’m not the dreamer type, but I could definitely see a future for both of us, in each others lives.  And that’s not an easy thing for me to picture.  With two kids of my own, I would have to find someone that can accept them as a part of the ‘package’, which Steve has done, even though he hasn’t spent any time with them.

But without getting into all of that, I think I’m just going to enjoy this for a while and see where it leads and see what answers I get.  After all, G-d always answers questions, but not always Yes or No.  Sometimes it’s a simple, Not Yet.

Well, Steve and I have been getting along just great!    I had a concert that I was performing in for the Fourth of July week (several concerts during the week), and he came along for the July 3rd concert.  First, I have to say how appreciative I was that he came along.  Supportive, and he truly enjoyed the concert.  He couldn’t stop raving about the orchestra and about how much he enjoyed hearing me play.  Second, I couldn’t believe that someone I really like came along.  This is the first guy that I’ve truly been interested in that didn’t have a problem coming along.  The few dates I’ve had that I wanted them to see me perform on stage have always grumbled about it, but in turn, they wanted me to see them play tennis, football, etc.

Is he Kosher?  Not really.  We both agree on that one.  During the holidays — okay.  Everyday.  Not ready to make that commitment yet.  We both agree that we want kids – and he has no problem accepting mine.  No, they haven’t met him yet, but I’ve been very open, honest and up front about them from the beginning.  Yep.  We’re a package deal.  And so far, he likes the package!  :

Talking about previous dates, and our previous marriages, we both have a lot in common, both in who we are, but also what we’re looking for in a potential mate.  He’s been married twice before, both to out-of-country girls.  So this is basically what he’s looking for.  A Jewish, single, US Citizen, into computers, pretty smart, decent looking, not a high or low maintenance kind of girl that has a decent sense of humor, and he’s hoping to find her here in the Tampa Bay area.  Yeah, right!  Talk about narrow bandwith! 

Me, I’m looking for a guy that doesn’t mind the fact that I have kids, decent looking, intelligent, preferably Jewish, a computer geek like me, a gentleman, and someone that isn’t into video games.  Well.  I’ve hit the jackpot!  Steve is all of those things and more!  Incredibly sweet, thoughtful, and we have a lot in common, but a lot to learn from each other as well!

Steve is in Peru right now, a week with his brother and sister-in-law.  I really miss him.  But he’ll be back on Wednesday the 16th.  I took him to the airport this past Wednesday (the 9th).  I got to his apartment about an hour early just because I couldn’t sleep.  Well, neither could he….    So we sat up talking until it was time to leave for the airport.  We kissed goodbye at the terminal entrance, and then he had to wait for about an hour before he could board his flight.  First class, of course.  But then again, if you had more than 300,000 sky miles in one year, you’d go first class too…  (yes, he travels a lot!)  I can’t wait to see where this adventure leads to! 

Well.  It’s been an interesting past couple of days. I’ve had my heart broken and yet, there’s considerable hope on the horizon.  A longtime friend that became something more is officially dating someone else.  Very disappointing, but considering that we live in two different states, it was bound to happen.  At least I can say that we’re still very good friends.  I’m very sad about this, as I loved him very much, but… these things happen and I do wish him well with his new girlfriend.  I’m surprised at the fact that I’m not more broken up about it, but I think I know why….  keep reading.

On the flip side, I recently met a man named Steve.  You can read about him some in my previous posts.  We’ve officially gone out on our third ‘date’.  We were supposed to go bike riding, but my bike wasn’t working, so we got some breakfast and headed over to the Mac store.  He’s going to be getting a Mac.  Whoo-hoo!  I’ve converted another one! 

We got along so well at the store, and on our previous actual bike rides, that by the end of the trip he was holding my hand.  He’s unlike any other man I’ve met.  Sensitive and kind, a true gentleman, and we have a lot of the same interests.  The funny thing is, he’s as much of a computer geek as I am.  Highly intelligent.  And he’s Jewish.  And he loves music.  And he doesn’t mind the fact that I have kids.  (In fact, he loves it)  Umm.  Can we say hold on tight?    No, not obsessive/compulsive tight.  There’s something really special about this one!

I met him yesterday for a short while at Upchucks (starbucks) when I was killing some time between meetings.  Time flew by so fast!  Next thing I knew, it was time to leave.  After my meeting, I called him to see if I could stop by and drop off a cd of music that I knew he would love to hear.  He was telling me on one of our bike rides about his tube amplifier system and tube cd player.  To die for!  Well, we ended up sitting on his couch, listening to the cd together.  After the first song, he reaches over, gently grabs me by the shoulders and pulls me in close.  And we just sat there, listening to some great music!

I’m not a needy person, and I’m quite self sufficient.  But this was really nice!  But let me backup to earlier in the weekend.  Saturday was kind of weird.  My bike has been absolutely fine, but on Saturday, when we started to riding, the chain kept popping off.  So we took it back to his place, where he has a garage.  I just couldn’t fix it.  So went out to breakfast instead, followed by a trip to the Mac store.

I found myself grinning like an absolute fool later that day…  I haven’t ever been this intrigued in someone.  I and I do mean ever….  

Later, after I got home, I took a look at my bike and test rode it around the block.  No problems whatsoever.  Hmmm.  Is someone attempting to tell me something?  I certainly hope so!  If that’s the case, I certainly got the message loud and clear!  

Okay, so I’ve decided to start dating again.  It’s been a long time since I divorced.  I’ve gone on a few dates and even had the “rebound” guy, but what I’m looking for is something a little bit more.  So I’m going to subscribe to JDate.com and see what happens.  At the very least I should make some new friends…

Wish me luck!