Heartbroken…. And yet… not….

Well.  It’s been an interesting past couple of days. I’ve had my heart broken and yet, there’s considerable hope on the horizon.  A longtime friend that became something more is officially dating someone else.  Very disappointing, but considering that we live in two different states, it was bound to happen.  At least I can say that we’re still very good friends.  I’m very sad about this, as I loved him very much, but… these things happen and I do wish him well with his new girlfriend.  I’m surprised at the fact that I’m not more broken up about it, but I think I know why….  keep reading.

On the flip side, I recently met a man named Steve.  You can read about him some in my previous posts.  We’ve officially gone out on our third ‘date’.  We were supposed to go bike riding, but my bike wasn’t working, so we got some breakfast and headed over to the Mac store.  He’s going to be getting a Mac.  Whoo-hoo!  I’ve converted another one! 

We got along so well at the store, and on our previous actual bike rides, that by the end of the trip he was holding my hand.  He’s unlike any other man I’ve met.  Sensitive and kind, a true gentleman, and we have a lot of the same interests.  The funny thing is, he’s as much of a computer geek as I am.  Highly intelligent.  And he’s Jewish.  And he loves music.  And he doesn’t mind the fact that I have kids.  (In fact, he loves it)  Umm.  Can we say hold on tight?    No, not obsessive/compulsive tight.  There’s something really special about this one!

I met him yesterday for a short while at Upchucks (starbucks) when I was killing some time between meetings.  Time flew by so fast!  Next thing I knew, it was time to leave.  After my meeting, I called him to see if I could stop by and drop off a cd of music that I knew he would love to hear.  He was telling me on one of our bike rides about his tube amplifier system and tube cd player.  To die for!  Well, we ended up sitting on his couch, listening to the cd together.  After the first song, he reaches over, gently grabs me by the shoulders and pulls me in close.  And we just sat there, listening to some great music!

I’m not a needy person, and I’m quite self sufficient.  But this was really nice!  But let me backup to earlier in the weekend.  Saturday was kind of weird.  My bike has been absolutely fine, but on Saturday, when we started to riding, the chain kept popping off.  So we took it back to his place, where he has a garage.  I just couldn’t fix it.  So went out to breakfast instead, followed by a trip to the Mac store.

I found myself grinning like an absolute fool later that day…  I haven’t ever been this intrigued in someone.  I and I do mean ever….  

Later, after I got home, I took a look at my bike and test rode it around the block.  No problems whatsoever.  Hmmm.  Is someone attempting to tell me something?  I certainly hope so!  If that’s the case, I certainly got the message loud and clear!  

~ by jewishheritage on July 1, 2008.